If there is something I have learned to master is the art of being alone. I love my space, because being alone has given me so much strength. There is nothing juicy like talking to yourself. Being alone doesn't mean that not being in a relationship. I mean just taking some time off and reflect on your life. This is just having the time to sit alone and pray, meditate, blame yourself for all the faults and also applaud yourself for a job well done.
I have developed this over a period of 2 years, I have developed this when I was forced to sit myself down and find myself again. It got addictive and I have realized that there is so much power in that. You get to tap into the strength that you never even thought you posses. This is what I call the mean time. Even if you are to make a very important decisions and you just sit down for 30 minutes and think about that you are able to come up with a very good decision. I love being alone, it frees me and it gives me the strength to face tomorrow and realize that absolutely no one will be able to give you the strength you need unless you get to be alone.
Being alone forced me to look for God and reflect on the life I am living and I have realized that I was living a care free life and I was pretending to be someone I am not. I have absorbed so much of people's energies and I was not able to recognize myself in the mirror anymore. Being alone made me find the real me, the person who I lost almost 12 years ago. The person who just want to find someone to help and be a good example to the world and mostly my son.
I realized that everything I do today whether good or bad my son pays for it and I want to make sure that he doesn't pay for my mistakes anymore. I want him to reap good results and be a good man. I have realized that I am raising someone's husband and I have to instill the the sense of responsibility and good sense and integrity and also find the strength in being alone.
But, you are never really alone, GOD is always there with you. You can never really hear Him when you are surrounded by too much noise and too many opinions and bad energies. You have to find time to shake those off by being alone. You get to talk to God and even listen to him talk to you. God will not come to you if you don't call him. He will show up when you surrender and ask Him to take over every area of your life. I have soared to greater heights by just putting Him first and allowed Him to take the throne of my heart and reign over my life.
In the meantime I have found God and me by being alone.
